Another rainy day in Ohio, and I’m not mad about it.
I woke at 7am (sleeping in yet again, I can’t seem to get my mind wrapped around early mornings right now) and got myself ready for my day – shower and comfy clothes to start, as I wanted to get some writing business attended to. I posted today’s quote post photo to Facebook, and wrote out another article. I also wrote one yesterday evening, before I in fact did sit down with Mr. King and his newest short story book If it Bleeds. After knocking out this morning’s article, I readied myself for my four hour Sunday shift at work. I tried like hell to not let the gloom interfere with my get shit done attitude. Lzzy Hale and caffeine kept me motivated through getting ready, driving to work, and knocking out a considerable amount of shit during the four hours I was set to work. I drove towards home afterwards in the nasty drizzle, stopping at the post office on my way.
I couldn’t have been happier to get home and change into my comfy home clothes. Yoga pants and a t-shirt that is just a little too big now that I’ve dropped over 20lbs since I ordered it. I chatted with Chase as I updated the chore chart, cleaned up the kitchen, and made myself a cup of coffee. Rain inspires in me a need for coffee. The warm drink is comforting to me, and the smell of the freshly brewed coffee scented the air as it poured into my cup from the Keurig. It’s a comforting scent, a homey scent that inspires relaxation, despite the caffeine in the drink that keeps me motivated.
I rebooted the laundry, wrote out my schedule for the week, and paid a couple remaining bills for brother. Now I sit in my customary situation; eucalyptus mint candle lit, coffee by my side, blanket covering my lap. . . I have every light on in my room to drive out the gloom of the day, and Lzzy is again singing to me, this time Black Vultures inspiring my mood.
I’m on the edge of the war
I’m holding on and hanging by a thread
I am the eye of the storm
And you haven’t seen the last of me just yet
I don’t give in, I don’t give up
I won’t ever let it break me
I’m on fire, I’m a fighter
I’ll forever be the last one standing
Black vultures circling the sky
Pick at the pieces
Scavengers wait for me to die
But I’m not defeated
So, now that I’ve rambled a little, how about today’s quote?
“Let me listen to me and not to them.” – Gertrude Stein
You have to follow your intuitions, you have to follow your gut, you have to follow your heart. That’s how I’m taking this today. I’ve always been an over-thinker, and a second guesser. I always wonder about someone’s intentions, what this phrase meant, what this look was supposed to convey.
I’ve mentioned that I’ve been delving a little deeper into astrology, and I’ve also been delving pretty heavily into self discovery, and some pretty spiritual shit. I’ve never been one that has subscribed to specifics when it comes to religion. I don’t discount anyone and their beliefs, because there is so much truth in every religion that I have encountered in this life. If you want to worship God or Allah or Buddha or a damn tree, that’s cool. Whatever feeds your spirit and drives you, that’s all you. Your personal preferences don’t have anything to do with what I believe. The main things I believe center around kindness, happiness and finding a place in your soul where you are at peace. However you need to go about attaining that is fantastic.
In the things that I have been researching and studying, I have found a recurring theme – being in tune with oneself, and recognizing the little tidbits of advice that the universe throws you. The little nudges in this direction or that, the signs that are plain for you to see if you open your mind to the possibility of there being something bigger at work. Overall, if it feels right in you mind, body, heart and soul, fucking do it.
And don’t listen to what anyone else may say.
Don’t take the leap, don’t take the risk. Think with your mind, not with your heart. . . That doesn’t make sense, that isn’t possible.
No, no, NO.
If it feels right, fucking do it. If you feel like possibility lies in the impossible, you’re probably right.
Just because it’s impossible for them, doesn’t mean it’s impossible for you.
You are the only one that has to live your life. No one else.
If your heart is telling you to do something, why ignore it? Why deny yourself that pleasure? No different than being hungry – your stomach growls and aches when it’s hungry, so you feed it – right? Similarly, your heart aches and yearns when it wants someone or something that will fulfill you. Feed it.
Your mind thinks in black and white. It shows you the obstacles that could potentially get in the way of your happiness. Use that to your advantage. Go for what your heart desires, and then think around the obstacles that could potentially pose a problem. Everything is figureoutable.
Don’t listen to the naysayers, don’t listen to your overthinking, second guessing mind. Follow your heart. Because your heart knows best what is going to make you ultimately the happiest. Follow your intuitions, and the signs that are presented to you that point you down the road you need to take.
And once you surrender to this, once you give in and give your heart what it is craving, you’ll start seeing that your heart wasn’t wrong. . . because guess what? You’ll be happier. You’ll feel fulfilled. And then everything will seem easier. Life is easier when you’re happy with who you are, and what you’re doing. If you stop fighting against your heart and intuition because of what ‘makes sense’, everything else will fall into place. Nothing in this world makes sense, guys. May as well go with the nonsensical thing that makes you the happiest.
I promise. You won’t regret it.
Happy Sunday. Follow your intuition.