Keeping my Balance

Life’s a little heavy right now.

I’m honestly having a hard time writing, which is why I haven’t posted anything in several days. There’s just so much in my head, and when I try to get it out by writing it down, it’s just gibberish. It’s like I can feel a physical weight on me. I’ve talked to Emma and Sophia about it – Emma says that everyone’s feeling a little off. Sophia always tells me to just roll with what I’m feeling. My horoscope says I have more changes coming. Fucking wonderful. As if this year hasn’t been a merry mess of uncertainty already. . .

What I can tell you is that there’s a lot going on in my little world. My head is full of this task and that task, this decision and that decision. To send the kids back to physical school, or home school them. Matt’s braces. The multiple clusterfucks at work. I’ve got a small item I’m helping brother with which is really nothing major, but it is another thing. . . there’s external family things too that I don’t really feel comfortable writing about. I feel a head cold coming on. Add in normal day to day things, and. . . y’all, it’s heavy.

It’s nothing I can’t get through and handle. I just need to get some of these items addressed and handled and things won’t be so heavy.

So, I woke up this morning a little after five, wanting to tackle some shit and move through this heavy time, and had a notification from wordpress – long story short, I found out that someone had copy and pasted my blog into their own. I had removed this person as a follower of my blog recently because some of their comments were a little on the odd side, a little on the creepy side. And now the copying and pasting of my blog into their own. . . ugh.

Just another thing. I reached out to WordPress to see if there was anything that could be done about it, and there isn’t. I’m sure that copying and pasting of websites happens every day.

If I was one to call off work because I needed a mental health day, today would be the day. It’s only 7am and I am absolutely done with everything and everyone.

But that’s not who I am. I will square my shoulders and get a handle on my emotions. I will go to work and I will address the issues that I can address and I will get through this overwhelming little bit of time – because that’s who I am and that’s what I do.

Obviously I have a thing for quotes, so here’s the one that ‘s speaking to me today –

Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving. – Albert Einstein

So I’m not going to stop moving. I can’t. I may just move forward a little slower for a minute until I get a handle on some shit. I’ve come too far in the last couple months to let anything stop my forward movement.

That’s what I’ve got for the moment, folks. Just a little update. I’m going to pick up the quote posts I think to keep me writing through this overwhelming time, so look for those more regularly.

Happy Tuesday. Please know that you were made to handle whatever life throws at you. It may seem a lot at times, but nothing is given to us that we can’t handle.

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