I can’t go back to part two just yet; I am frustrated and upset and that doesn’t make for good writing. Hopefully after today’s busy schedule my mind will be cleared and I can approach the story again.
For now it’s a slightly gloomy Sunday morning. The sun is trying to peek out, but the clouds are winning the battle. My overgrown backyard is quiet – if you ignore the low flying plane and the traffic on the busy road in front of the house.
I’m ready for my day a little early, so I figured I would take a moment to scratch the writers itch.
I was so upset and annoyed last night that I skipped my nightly yoga and shower. And I felt it this morning when I woke up, stiff and annoyed that I let it get to me like that. I immediately got up and got dressed, got some water, and proceeded to do some relaxing yoga as opposed to my more strenuous work out. My mind wasn’t in it. I kept thinking about the things worrying me instead of my poses.
School starts soon. Matt in his first year of junior high, Chase in his first year of school all together. I need to finish school shopping, and there’s some paperwork for Matt that needs done. I haven’t gotten confirmation that Chase will be attending his school of choice, so his school supply list is up in the air as different schools have different lists. There are meetings to attend coming up. Aaron’s social security review is this week and it’s an utter pain. I missed two days plus part of Monday due to my illness and Matt’s catastrophe and I’m so behind at work and at home that it exhausts me to just think about it. The lawn needs mowed and the gardens are overgrown with weeds. My list of things that need my attention is astronomical.
As I finished my last pose I thought of the part my Dad played in the section of the story that got deleted last night, and tears stung my eyes. I had conveyed his role in that portion of my life so well, and I prayed I could get it back. Talking about him through all of this heals me, and keeps his memory alive.
For now though, it’s off to work to tackle that to do list. After, I need to run some errands and tackle my home to do list. I am hoping for energy and positivity and some fucking sunshine to brighten my mood and my day.